Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Well the Dr. called and it is all finally done.. Only 2 years and 4 months later.... the first 7 months was due to my Dr not sending the report to the weight loss office. I should have known then and changed Dr. huh? I didn't tho and then she messed up and 3 months of my weigh ins putting me behind another 3 months... Alas, all is well and the insurance could take up to 3 weeks to decided if they think I need this surgery... Crap, you'd have to be deaf and blind not to see that I am dying slowly... Ok enough on that..
That was by far the best news I have had in a few days, right? Brian tells me this last week that we need to sit down and have a family meeting that Saturday... I ask about what and he tells me he has everything written down and if I could wait till the kids where there he would fill me in... Well my first responds was ok, fine.. Whatever.... The next day I poked and poked, He gave up nothing.. Well Saturday came and the kids were all gone. I forgot about it... Then... Sunday morning, He told me.... He can't live here anymore.. This house, here, this far.... outside of town... It is killing him... He stared to cry.. Not just little tears, but chest raising tears... It broke my heart.. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry... I sat there dead... "What?" I think, is all I said...
Move? NOW? No No No yeah No.. I am not moving....
For the whole story on our house please visit my early blogging days over at my myspace.. http://www.myspace.com/blessed_beyond_measure_
They are in my blog page..
Now 3 years later he wants to move.... I spent the first year on my back. The only thing I could do was dream of what this place would someday become. Knowing after my surgery I could plant my garden, can all my own veggies and all my fish... It really was the only thing that kept me going all those -45 nights w/ no water any sort of heat to speak of and don't even get me started on the huny pots!
Anyway....Here are a few pictures of what I see everytime I look out my window in the winter.. How could he want me to leave this? I simply can't
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I can't hardly believe that in a few short weeks I will have my surgery and the person I have been so desperately trying to forget will be gone in a year... I look into the mirror and see that victim from so many years past.. Not behind my eyes anymore. That shattered woman in the eyes is gone... What remains is the shell she created and inhabited for the last 27 years... Even worse a shell that is breaking and folding under her...
Can you believe it this time next year, my very next Birthday I will be 1/2 the woman I am today!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I have to lose 10 lbs before surgery.. Not so bad huh? The appt. went great... I had my favorite Nurse. Her name is Bobby and she weighed the same amount as me and looks amazing 4 years later.... Everything is now in, counting my dang hours on my machine.. I should be getting a call anyday now that everything went into insurance... I am still not getting over the top excited.. I never know, I quess the insurance can still deny me which would be a major drag... I really haven't anything to say right now.. Some blogger I am huh?
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
HEEHEEHEE I can't stop laughing.. I'm all by myself.. I know it nuts to keep laughing but dang this is soo flippin' funny...So allow me to set up this story. It is very cold outside maybe -5 right now.. That being said, it is very cold inside about 56 degrees ...don't ask... Oz was running around w/out socks on the other morning.. Trying to get him to stand still for any length of time is up surd.. I always lose his socks trying to catch him... It was so cold in the house that I thought I'd kill two birds so to speak.... Get them warm and not lose them, while I dog piled him to the floor.... So....I lifted up my hummm well my.. yeah.. ya know,my, yep, that's right my BOOB. One at a time and placed his little ity bity socks under them.... Well...... the the phone rang, the dog needed out, my tea pot was whistling, Josh needed a shirt, Brian needed a hand and well Chauni just babbled too long to me about nothing... I totally forgot where I put his socks.... Found him another pair and went about my business.... A few hours later I was fixing my bra. It was itching me.... I am ashamed to say.... There was those ity bity socks right where I had left them.. Toasty warm and waiting for some little Oz toogs