Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Goodbye for now!

It has been an interesting week to say the least.. I miss blogging so much and reading every ones blogs.... I'll give you the details in a moment... First, Thank you so much Reggie Girl for the wonderful surprise I received in the mail.... Yummy smells make me so happy! Second, Robyn, Every time I get to spend time w/ you is a blessing and my Suga Mama Sign is well yeah PERFECT! Great friends are far better then anything in my book!

Now on to the Drama...... I'll keep this short as not to fall into a state of mind I just crawled out of k!
For some time now I guess We have been having financial problems.. I knew since I haven't worked that we have been struggling but.... Life is life and we give up things for other things, huh? Friday of last week, I was resting and someone came to the door.. I didn't think much of it and figured if it was a friend they would have called... I went to let the dog out a few hours later and found.... A single piece of paper.... It described how my house was going back to the bank... Man oh Man can I tell you how very confused, pissed, scared I was....
Let me back up, Brian had told me a few months back that he wanted to move closer to town for at least a year so we could save some money....I didn't want to move but in the last several months decided that If that is what the family wants I would put my feelings aside for the time being..... I told Brian ok, but that I wanted to keep this place out in my Ak woods... He said, ok and then we just got busy w/ my surgery....

Come to find out, We had already lost the property.. Bri just couldn't bring himself to tell me....
He knew how very much I love where I live and how excited I was about getting healthy and planting my garden this spring....
Well here I sit... We have until the 4th to move.... It was hard to breath at first.. If I don't catch myself I really start to become angry.. I want to scream.... I don't understand how this happened.. How could he think he was sparing me by keeping this from me until now... How tired he must have become to live this lie for so long.... I will be packing up the pc tomorrow.. The kids seem to be having a problem packing and then playin on the pc... I figure if I pack it they won't have a problem huh? Everything goes into storage Saturday....At this point we haven't found a place.. I really am just too sick to do anything but pack.... I will be back... Thank you all for your grace for me.... I will see you in a few weeks I hope!


My name is Martina, I have problems....
Peace~

9 comments:

  1. Ahhhhhh Girly I have been praying for you to find a place and I know God has a plan.
    You know I love you dearly and if my place was big enough I would let you all stay here!
    Sunday when I seen you at church, I just saw joy and a sparkle in your eye that I have not seen for a long time. You are so beautiful, inside and out. I can totally tell that you are loosing weight, and I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! Weather you believe it or not your friendship makes my heart sing!
    I Love you
    Oh and guess what?
    My Name is Robyn, and I have problems also!

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  2. My name is Marlene and I have problems too.

    Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I have been where you are and in this economy we are all just but one foot out the door.

    You are among sisters.

    I will be praying for you and keep us posted. You have my email if you need anything.

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  3. Darling Sugamama........I know this may sound trite but I promise you when God closes one door He opens another door. Keep your head and spirits up my friend......It is going to be okay. Bless your husband's heart for not wanting to hurt you by not telling you. That's so sweet that he cares so deeply.
    "Father God, keep my Sugamama and her family in your sweet under Your sweet holy wings". Amen.
    I luvs ya girl!! Be back realy soon......PLEASE???
    Robyn and I miss you :)

    Steady On Honey
    Reggie Girl

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  4. Oh no....not my Sugarmama! I'm gonna really miss you these next few weeks!
    Remember that God is in control of this whole situation, and has BIG plans for you!
    Plus, you have Robyn !! How lucky can you be?

    I'll be praying for a marvelous outcome!

    Maybe this housing thingy is your gorilla! lol

    I'm Jacki, and I have problems too, BUT....
    I AM A CHILD OF THE KING!

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  5. OK...I know you won't read this right away but it needs to be said. You are an Alaskan. Us Alaska women are tough. We make do with what we have and we make it work. You will no doubt rise to this challenge and show your true Alaskan colors. You have your health, your families love and your sense of humor (even though it seems a little tattered right now)...what more do you need? I'm praying for you Matina!! (Coleen in Wasilla)

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  6. ..It is going to be okay. Bless your husband's heart for not wanting to hurt you by not telling you. That's so sweet that he cares so deeply.

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  7. I would let you all stay here!
    Sunday when I seen you at church, I just saw joy and a sparkle in your eye that I have not seen for a long time. You are so beautiful, inside and out.
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