The otherside of home invasion

Last night was a typical night.... put baby to bed, kids down for the night. Brian and I taking a moment to download a long day. Seinfeld, and some snuggling...
Then..... A loud scream, pounding, no more then 5 inches from my head. Please help me, he's after me! please HELP me, LET ME IN, HE'S COMING. It took me roughly 3 seconds to shout come to the door, Who are you, are you ok? She crawled up our stairs, crawled into our door, Brian grabbed her as she screamed, My baby, My baby, He still has my baby! I was on the phone to 911 as Josh took her to the bathroom.. I was screaming get Oz in the car, Chauni was up by now.. Crying, screaming, praying....... 911 dispatch. "Martina whats her name?" "I don't know", Where does she live? "I don't know," I don't know anything, She is bleeding, screaming, she can't speak.. Just whimpers, Please help me, my baby..... Brian, Martina get in the car, get the kids in the car now.. She starts screaming again, He's coming he is going to kill you all, EVERYONE OF YOU, GET OUT, GET OUT NOW! Brian screams STOP, Don't go outside, turn off the lights.... Brian I have to get the kids out now..... She is on our floor screaming, bleeding.....I struggle w/ getting down there praying w/ her holding her... Comforting her, a million things are running through my mind.... I can't help her Brian has to help her I have to get my kids out now...
Brian, I am going out there I have to see if he is there.. We have to get into the car NOW!
Police are on their way maybe 5 minutes out... "Martina, Go now, I will send the kids, Josh will hold Oz, Chauni goes after mom. We got this! I love you, Brian, I am soo scared.. What if he is out there? Just run Martina... I laugh out loud, Me run, We're in for it now!
I get to the car, no Crazy man W a gun yet.. I hear Brian push Chauni out.. Chauni is in Oz and Josh next... Oz in... Josh coming around to the front
passenger side..... Ok Ok Ok.. Lock the doors we are on our way.. Oh God protect Brian, Keep him safe please God......
Chauni... "Mom, MOM", Where are we going...
Crap! I don't know.. I call 911. My Children and I have left the house. Brian and screaming woman are still there lights are out, Please hurry.....
911, Go to the end of your road, Stay there until you see the police.. No problem, I can do that....
11:00 p.m. Waiting at the end of the road Police drive right past us.. SHIT SHIT SHIT! Man, Crap.... HELLO..... He turns around..... Get to the otherside of the road Martina, Stay put.... Please hurry, Does the gun man know where his wife is.. No... I Don't think so... My husband is down there, Please hurry.. I musta said that a million times.. In My head and out loud.... God Help us.... God help that baby, comfort that woman..... Protect these officers... 9 Cop cars 2 emergency rigs....
God what is happening? I can't see hear anything..... It is soo dark.... Oz is running out of milk, Chauni is in the back comforting him. Josh and I are trying to just relax, listen to music.... midnight..... one o'clock.... two o'clock.....
Oz is now crying the kids are tired still nothing... Brian gets me on the cell, She is still at the house Police are there now.. They all parked at the end of the road and walked in a line through the woods down the road.... Brian didn't see or hear anything until there where 5 fully armored men on our porch. Lights out... stay put... We have to secure the area. I call Brian... I can't get through.. I am so scared...... Josh finally gets through... the house phone was ringing busy.. It never rings busy... I can't breath very well.. They can't find the baby, they can't find the man.... What they just left you there? Are they fricking crazy...... Shit... Breath, Pray..... Brian, I love you...Please don't be a hero.... Please Just stay in the house....
Martina, I love you, I love the kids....... Tell them I love them.... Everything is going to be ok........
I hear him comfort Holly. She is crying softly now, My baby, My baby..... Somebody bring me my baby.... He is going to kill him...... She told Brian the story...
She got home, He was drunk already... really drunk...... She wanted to leave... he hit her a few times scream awful things...... Smashed her face w/ the butt of a gun..... smashed her cell phone, pulled the house phone from the wall and destroyed the power box..... The baby started screaming, She got free, ran, ran as fast as she could... Through the woods.... The first house she came to, no one was home she broke a window to get in.. Couldn't get in.. Saw our T.V. light through the woods.....
3:15 a.m. Kids are getting restless, Oz is crying, he is outta milk.. My wallet is in the house so are my shoes.. Every ones Shoes....
I call Brian, Whats going on? Police have taken the girl... Taken her to the end of the road in the Emergency rig.... Brain is tired, but ok... Now we wait... There is many places for this man to hide on our property... on his... Everywhere in between.. Men w/ guns everywhere.... Just wait Martina..
3:30 undercover SUV w/ two men and a baby..... Oh Thank you Lord... Oh God, Thank you soo much...
Martina, You can go home now, We have the man in custody... The baby boy is sleeping and ok...
We drive home slowly.... Tired but safe..... Get Oz calmed down, Chauni won't sleep alone.. Wants to sleep w/ us.. Josh is going to watch a cartoon, to relax...
I climb into bed Oz isn't tired... Chauni won't stop talking.. Brian is falling fast..... I close my eyes..... I start to dream instantly.. But it is tormenting and awful from the moment my eyes close.... I remember I was running though some side streets, Kenny was chasing me, He caught me, smashed my face up against a window.. I saw a man, I knew the man, Please let me in... He is going to kill me, please help me.. He never let me in, he did call the cops.. They did come and save me , but not before the shit was kicked outta me.... I had forgotten about that.... a wave of past memories flooding my thoughts.... So many nightmares from our past.. So much the kids recall that I thought they had forgotten, or never even knew happened.... Now another moment, a shift in our ever moving forward healing....
This has opened up communication w/ both the kids about the abuse they saw. The abuse Josh couldn't save me or Chauni from... God I know it's time to peel yet another layer..... Keep me strong, Help me not to run away from these demons that still capture parts of my mind and my children's thoughts.....Heal us, protect us.. Thank you for Brian, strong and fearless.... Protecting me, our children, our home...... We have come so far..... We are not afraid.. Bless this women and her baby boy.. Bring comfort to them..... Thank you for this time.. To see your hand moving in our life's...

Sadness~

I struggled to sleep the night before the election.. Staying up praying for Obama and his family for the loss of his grandmum... I prayed that the man I choose to vote for was the man God would have me vote for... I prayed for the comfort if this man didn't win.. Reflection of the future if he indeed lost. So here this morning w/ a heavy heavy heart I look into the world I don't know, seeing people in a new light..... I am not angry that a Black man won the Election... For that it is wonderful..... I am sad because as a Nation we have choose to look @ issues that have lit the darkness causing us to focus on the shadows instead of issues I believe that will fix our economy. When this Nation gets right w/ what God has said, When we humble ourselves and draw the line in the sand... When we say enough is enough.... That is when the Blessing of our Father will fall....
Please hear me when I say, I am far far far from perfect.. I don't hold any answers. There are many thing in my life I need to submit to the Lord.... I have friends, a very close friend, who is gay... I love him so much, I don't want to say the wrong thing... Offence is an awful thing to cause and get over.... I struggle w/ conversations that he and I have about his life.. I want to just love him and excuse the rest.. I know what I am supposed to say, I however don't know how to say it.
I want my children to have compassion for everyone.. Gays, straight, black people, some white people. I am not blind nor am I deaf... I see and hear where this world is going.... Tolerance is not a bad word, but I think it is being redefined because it has been made to sound like a bad word this election. God I know your hand is in this.. I know You and You alone see tomorrow... Allow me to see what you see... Bring comfort where there is non and remind me that I stand firm in your Shadow....