you are my sunshine....

Man, I miss you ladies so much....

I am just 9 weeks out and 83 lbs down...

We have moved and are finally settled what a ride!

I will be getting internet soon at the house and wanted to tell all of you I am well and can't wait to get back in the groove w/ my bloggin peeps!

Come back soon for pics and all the juicy details of what it takes to lose 83 lbs in just over two months! UUUUG!

My name is Martina and boy do I have a story to share!

~M~

I once was lost, but now I'm found!

Oh My sweet cheekas...
I am alive and well....
We have a new house but it won't be ready for 3 weeks so we are camping... We are loving it soo much... The kids have been great... Oz is diggin it most of all... Chauni could do w/out the rain and Josh is a bit tired from hauling wood.... Most of all I love it.... I get to be w/ my family and make even greater memories then before... I can't really see myself living in a town, but I am going to try... They all so badly want to live in a town.. I think they are NUTS, but a year won't kill me huh! We wake up to Eagles every morning as well as a few feisty black bears, the moose are all over the place waiting to drop spring babies... I have spent the last few days settin up camp and am excited to now start taking pictures. We did have a freak moment the first night, involving Josh some hot grease and my lower leg... It sent me to the ER.. i ended up w/ 2nd degree burns and blisters from my knee down.. Makes it a total drag to try to bend, walk, crawl into the tent.. Blah Blah Blah... Even that can't bring me down. We have never been homeless, but in the same turn we as a whole family have never been more happy.....
I am sad that we lost the house, But I know the great things God has for us will bring even sweeter joy!
NOW on to my weigh in!!!!!!!!
I have now made it below 400 lbs!!!!!
Scale says 397.. I had what they call a stall for a week or so.. No weight loss at all.. Let me tell you that SUCKED man!I was getting about 340 calories a day and not losing a thing! The Doc said it was my body in shock not wanting to give up any fat at all.. Then all of a sudden 5 lbs in 2 days.. SHUT UP!!!! I know huh? I feel AMAZING. My Back still doesn't hurt.. SO many years in pain and it just disappeared.. I can't stop the tears when I think about it.... No one can really tell tell yet, but I can....
I tell myself it wasn't about looking hot It was about feeling better... AND Man, I feel so much more alive! We are taking showers and washing clothes right now.. I am on the laptop... I hope to be on every few days w/ new stories and updates! I hope to get to read all of your blogs and catch up on everything! God is good.. You know I can't even type that w/ out my eyes filling w/ tears....
My name is Martina and just because I don't have a house, doesn't mean I don't have a home!
Much love, ~M~

Goodbye for now!

It has been an interesting week to say the least.. I miss blogging so much and reading every ones blogs.... I'll give you the details in a moment... First, Thank you so much Reggie Girl for the wonderful surprise I received in the mail.... Yummy smells make me so happy! Second, Robyn, Every time I get to spend time w/ you is a blessing and my Suga Mama Sign is well yeah PERFECT! Great friends are far better then anything in my book!

Now on to the Drama...... I'll keep this short as not to fall into a state of mind I just crawled out of k!
For some time now I guess We have been having financial problems.. I knew since I haven't worked that we have been struggling but.... Life is life and we give up things for other things, huh? Friday of last week, I was resting and someone came to the door.. I didn't think much of it and figured if it was a friend they would have called... I went to let the dog out a few hours later and found.... A single piece of paper.... It described how my house was going back to the bank... Man oh Man can I tell you how very confused, pissed, scared I was....
Let me back up, Brian had told me a few months back that he wanted to move closer to town for at least a year so we could save some money....I didn't want to move but in the last several months decided that If that is what the family wants I would put my feelings aside for the time being..... I told Brian ok, but that I wanted to keep this place out in my Ak woods... He said, ok and then we just got busy w/ my surgery....

Come to find out, We had already lost the property.. Bri just couldn't bring himself to tell me....
He knew how very much I love where I live and how excited I was about getting healthy and planting my garden this spring....
Well here I sit... We have until the 4th to move.... It was hard to breath at first.. If I don't catch myself I really start to become angry.. I want to scream.... I don't understand how this happened.. How could he think he was sparing me by keeping this from me until now... How tired he must have become to live this lie for so long.... I will be packing up the pc tomorrow.. The kids seem to be having a problem packing and then playin on the pc... I figure if I pack it they won't have a problem huh? Everything goes into storage Saturday....At this point we haven't found a place.. I really am just too sick to do anything but pack.... I will be back... Thank you all for your grace for me.... I will see you in a few weeks I hope!


My name is Martina, I have problems....
Peace~