Same doo rag 1 year later The change on the outside is amazing.. The change on the inside is complicated....
This blog has been hard to come back to.. I struggle with closing the door on this chapter in my life... I think tho I want to close it outta shame, not simply because I have lost so much weight...
I went back and readmy old posts and man... Wow... There was one that I posted that struck me anew.. I was talking about my biggest,maybe my deepest fear... What if I am fat because I am lazy, not lazy because I am fat.... Our family counselor once told me, there is no lazy people, just unmotivated ones.... I'm not sure if I believe that or not, but I ponder on it frequently.
Do I eat less because I am healthy, and want to live a long life of mobility.. Or as I feared do I eat less simply because my pouch is the size of a golfball... At the end of my day 15o somethin' lbs doesnt scream freedom in my ear... It whispers "Watch out, I'm still here you just can't see me".
